Life of a Ridiculously Intricate Pre-Med

☀🌴🙏 summer break commencing!🍧🍉🍸 (Taken with instagram)

This is the dream. 👍 (Taken with instagram)

Frances’ birthday! 🍰 (Taken with instagram)

I’m in love. I can’t put in words how he makes me feel. No one else, ever. I guess this is what love does to you. You can bet that song is on repeat when I’m driving. :3

My speech teacher left some comments on my speech grade sheet. 😳 (Taken with instagram)

🌴☀ (Taken with instagram)

I sent my SIR to UCLA.

I am going to be a Bruin.

I went to visit yesterday…but it kind of sucked.

Not that it isn’t a great school—it’s beautiful. I was overwhelmed by the fact that I got in just being there.

But I’m bummed about possibly losing my best friend, who may go to Berkeley.

I mean, my two other best friends live in different cities and we all still keep in touch.

But Katy, she’s just been here for everything. We built social connections together. We did everything together here in Long Beach, and at LBCC. I’m scared to start somewhere new without her.

And on top of that, I’m scared to death of what’s going to happen to my relationship with Casey. I don’t know that we’ll stay together. I foresee my future being constantly busy. I like the feeling of doing significant things. But I don’t know how happy I’ll be if I lose him. If it’s just going to end, I wish it would end now so I don’t have to feel the pain 4 months from now. He is the most nontoxic person I’ve ever been with. I like that we are in a functional relationship without insecurities, without jealousy, and with a lot of trust. From all the guys i’ve been through, he’s the best.

I’m also trying to figure out what I’m going to do about loans, and housing. Living on campus? Apartment? Commute? AASDLKFSDLK I don’t know what I WANT. >:(

Anyways, I’m sitting here procrastinating, when I should be writing a speech.

So I’m going back to my coffee, and back to work. Hopefully this freak out goes away, soon.

I still can’t believe I got in…😭 (Taken with instagram)

I woke up from a nap on Friday, 4/20, and checked my status because my best friend checked hers.

“Congratulations” is all I read before I started screaming and crying from joy.

Especially because me and my best friend got accepted to an internationally known university. (Doesn’t happen everyday! ;))

This is one of the biggest accomplishments in my life. Over 90,000 applicants, and I got in.

Went out to celebrate with my family last night.

Friday night, after I got accepted, I came home and my aunt and uncle left me a surprise.

It was super sweet. No one has done anything like that for me, ever.

Not even Casey—who I waited all day to tell. But he didn’t seem as excited. Maybe it’s because me transferring at all is kind of a sore subject.
We’re good though. I guess.

I was watching Grey’s Anatomy—the episode where Christina Yang is in the bathroom, and Owen busts in—and she starts laughing hysterically because she realizes that she’s basically the baddest mf’er at Seattle Grace, and she’s supposed to be studying for the most important test of her career, but she was in the bathroom crying over a boy.

I know it’s all fictional, but that made me realize how unimportant guys are in terms of the bigger picture. I’m trying my best not to let this get in the way of my future. It’s hard because I like Casey so much. Not for shallow reasons at all, but because his weirdness is compatible with my weirdness. I don’t know how often I’ll find that. We get along so well, that I don’t care about the age difference. I don’t care what anyone thinks. BUT, the point is that I have to keep in mind that I shouldn’t ever waste my time over a guy who can’t treat me right, or anyone that can’t treat me right for that matter, when I could be doing bigger things.

Anyways, time for church!

John West—Right Now

Such a sexy voice. <3

The luxury I’m in school to have one day.

(via misscintia)

Dev-Take Her From You

• Question: Oh, yeah, definitely a smart decision. I just transferred Fall '11. I hate how long we had/have to wait until transfer decisions come out. -__- But all the luck to you! :] Which school is your number one? - Anonymous
• Answer:

  Congrats on transferring! :) I definitely am agitated by these last acceptances/rejections. My number one would have to be between UCLA and Berkeley., but I’m leaning toward UCLA because I LOVE SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA. <3

I normally look like a boy.